To whoever is thinking about taking their life, I want to say I understand, and I know what it feels to have something that feels empty inside your chest. You don’t feel purpose, or happiness, or anything that makes you feel like going on. It only feels like the same routine as a machine on a daily program. You get up, put on the suit of a smile on your face, and you do the same thing. Drink your coffee, say hi to your neighbors, watch movies or Friends, go home, and rest. We don’t know what ‘happy’ means, but there is a reason that we are still going through this so far. We are still trying, some reached their limit and took their life, but as long as you’re alive, right here, right now, reading this. You know there’s still a tiny part in you that is at least still willing to keep going for a bit, like an adventure, trying to find the treasure, in which the treasure is your purpose and along with it your happiness. To whoever feels like they can’t take no more, take comfort in the fact that there are people who know exactly how it feels, you’re not alone. The sad part is, we do not know how to help others because we do not know how to help ourselves to begin with. We tell ourselves the same thing “Keep going, it’ll be fine someday” and that’s what keeps us going. The sad part is the effort wasted by going through all this to finally find the purpose and it ends midway. To whoever is reading this, think of how many years you suffered this ache in your mind, and your heart all-together. You have carried this pain with you for a long time. Why do we bear the pain and eventually move on? Cause we have a small light in us telling us to keep going and that it will be ok at some point. We are not machines, we cannot take too much damage and expect to walk normally the next day. We are not machines, we are not machines, but we are stronger than machines. We are not made of metal, we are of flesh. We are not programmed, we are unpredictable. Happiness can have its small moments in small things.
Strangers smiling at you
A perfect cup of hot coffee on a cold day
A hug from a friend as way of comfort or as greeting
Having beautiful hair and showing it off
Cats purring while passing by you when you’re walking
A beautiful morning with clouds or rain depending on what you prefer
Colorful buildings and drawings.
A random “I love you” from a close friend
and it goes on. They are so many that one passes by without noticing them. To whoever feels broken, and empty and cannot take no more. I cannot ask you not to make such a decision, but I will comfort you in all ways hoping that it will, at somepoint, when you’re about to make that decision, in that last second, you will remember me, and change your decision and decide to keep going. It’s a hard ride, this life. Harder than any roller coaster we decided to get on, but like any roller coaster, the hard part stops at some point. To whoever wants to take their life, there are people there for you, no matter what decision you make. We love you, we care for you, we will never leave. We will always comfort you when you need it. We’ll watch over you like stars watching over us when we sleep. We are the little things. We love you.
Canadian artist Zachari Logan is portrayed as the model in his artwork, however, he doesn’t intend to highlight himself but rather explore the relationship of human and nature.
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